Shitter (as My roommate might say)

I have not been keeping up with this as I hope. I haven't been too extremely busy, but I've been kept occupied. I started my new summer class. it's pretty much another watered down review of com arts 350 and 351. I've already seen one movie in anotehr class called Public Enemy with James Cageny. Watched it for the same reason; gangster genres. blah blah conventions, blah blah the gangster is a product and demise of the city, wanting to become an individual he ultimately destroys himself. I want if this holds true in life. by seperating yourself from society, you eventually implode. I know in the army they don't like individuality, they'll be the first to call you out. maybe that's the reason why I had to leave, I felt that to achieve my goals I had to fidn my own route, go at it alone. I think that's good though, one can really find out what they're capable of doing. I see in society (and myself) a need be a part of the group. And I'm not talking about the whole bandwagon sheep thing, but self reliance and responsibility seem to be disappearing (the government seems to be lacking in the responsibilty department).
i think that we're too quick to look for help for a problem if the solution is not apparent. I know I'm guilty of it as well. hmm... talk about a tangent.
I got a "Kudos" or a acknowledgement from one of my producers the other day when we went on my shoot. I actually got two, the first one was really elementary, but it just helped him out on keeping track of the menial tasks in production, it was as simple as putting a note on a lamp that had burnt on reminding him that he needed to change it. that was it, taking some initiative, but he saw it and acknwoledged it. the next was from the same producer but he wasn't at teh shoot. it was the library shoot that i was telling you about with the instructional video for the people with disabilities. anyways the DP/producer/camera man was shooting a shot reverse shot with the talents. well he started out on teh left hand side of one of the actors and then he shot from the same angle, but on the opposite side. He broke the 180 degree rule and I let him know. He said that he kinda understood what i was talking about, but that it would make sense. Well, yeah it would make sense, but it's going to look wrong when you edit. Well the producer who was doing the editing heard the conversation on tape and made a comment to me about it. I told him i know i was right, but ya know, I'm just a production assistant. it's their shoot, I just help out if possible. but that's what shoots should be like, you can't always keep track of everything, so it;s good to have somebody watch your back. i made a comment, he decided to do it his way.
Okay so next week is going to fucking suck. and i mean that in the worst possible way. it's going to blow, let's take a look: monday through friday, I have work from at least 8:30- 1200, monday through thursday i have class from 1200 till 415. on monday tuesday thursday and friday, I have a dance shoot from 430 till8 30 (somewhere around there). Fuck THAT. I don't know why i told them I could do that. I should of got a spine or something and told them that it's too much.................but it isn't, it's REALLY a cake walk compared to some of the other shit i've done, even if i'm not able to get anything to eat. But this isn't the army, and i'm helping them out as opposed to me. it would be better to go throug the shit if i was the benefactor, but to be honest, it's some bullshit dance performance. MAYBE there might be some hot broads to console me, but even then. I'm not REALLY giving up a whole lot, but I do have classes, and I do like to eat. oh well, when one is consistently dependable, it begins to be expected.
So now what? I've started working out, and it's started in the morning, I wake up at 530 and i get into madison around 600. I try to run for about 30 minutes and work out until i have to go to work at 830. I'm not sure if I get all that I want to do in that time frame, but even if i woke up earlier, i'd only have about an hour and a half to work out, the gym doesn't open till 630 anyways. I've started running around madison adn the campus, there's a nice assortment of inclines and hills, especially with that bastard Bascom. it was bad enough walking that mother fucker, but trying to run up it after 20 mins of running, wears my ass out. But it's good, I just hope i can keep the pace that i've started. I actually woke up before my alarm clock went off, but i hit the snooze buttton anyways. I tried to get that kinda nap sorta thing, but it didn't happen. I'm kinda having some drinks tonight, so we're going to have to see if i can continue the waking up early thing. I love mornings, and I'm happy that I've been able to begin teh process of disciplining myself to get up that early. I think I mostly owe it to my ex-girlfriend for forcing me to move on. i was getting fat and getting relaxed into the cycle. it was what i need to get myself healthy and out there to pursue more pussy. although for the past two nights I did have drams about her,anyways nobody wants to go out with a slob, so i'm doing this for myself and all the potential females, the summer has just started today. but the only thing is i'm going to have to weigh my drinking time with my working out time. It'll be VERY hard to do both, especially if i'm out till 2 and wanting to wake up at 5 30. oh anotehr godamn thing, fuckin class is cutting into my sun time. i know i know, sounsd REALLY gay, but i got a pool and some time, go out there and float in the water, soak up some sun, read my book and work on a tan. nothing better than that, BUT now I got class from 1200 to 430 AND on teh friday I don't have class, I have work.
Hmmm...I don't think there's anything else, and i donthinkg anybody reads this anyways, but i'm putting a hold on rendering out my 651 project only because it's taking too bloody long to do. i think it has to do with being on a external harddrive. I also changed my background on my blog, which took me forever to find something i Kinda of like, I'm not a big fan of having to have patterns, so maybe a website would be better,,,,anyways thats it. cheap drinks at pedros, especially tequila. ODELAY!!!!!!!!